Today I witnessed something unimaginable. Started my day with a meeting at the Prime Minister’s Department in the morning. Positive outcome which makes me really happy. Then continue my day back at the office when I received a text from Ili saying that Yang’s father is at his critical level in the hospital. I then decided to finish up the work in the office and run to the hospital by 3PM. I texted Yang saying that I’ll be there by 3PM to visit her father. She didn’t reply my text and I knew something wasn’t right. I was too busy finishing up my work only to realize that it’s already 3.30PM. So I rushed down to Subang to pick up Mia and visit Yang’s father together. Arrived in Subang at 3.50PM and while waiting for Mia to come out, I was shocked to read Khairun’s twitter saying that Yang’s father has gone back to Rahmatullah. I was stunned. Helpless. Confused. Don’t really know what to do next. I could have pay the visit an hour earlier when he was still alive but I did not. Don’t really know what to say at the moment. Then I received a bbm message from Niena saying that Lily just gave birth to her first baby. That actually made me even more confused. Should I grief or should I celebrate? God took a life and gave a life within the same hour. Then it hits me. God is almighty. How small are we as compared to His power. He can take a life and give a life without any hesitant. I sat down and start thinking of life and death. The more I think about it, the more chills running though my veins. I was scared. I decided to go the Mosque and calm myself down with prayer. I started to think what if I lost my father at this age. Can I cope with it? Only Allah knows.
Then I went to the funeral in USJ 22. Gloomy. It took only 15 minutes to bring Allahyarham from his coffin to his grave and buried it. 15 minutes. That’s even shorter than my trip from home to work everyday. Then the cleric starts reciting the doa.
“Sesungguhnya hidup dan mati itu adalah benar.”
“Sesungguhnya syurga dan neraka itu adalah benar.”
“Sesungguhnya malaikat Mungkar dan Nakir itu adalah benar.”
“Sesungguhnya azab siksaan Allah itu adalah benar.”
“Sesungguhnya nikmat syurga Allah adalah benar.”
Few of the words by the cleric that hits me through my bones. I wasn’t a good Muslim before. And if I die tomorrow, will I be ready for the after-life. Obviously not.
And they say, “There is not but our worldly life; we die and live (i.e. some people die and others live, replacing them) and nothing destroys us except time.” And they have of that no knowledge; they are only assuming. And when Our verses are recited to them as clear evidences, their argument is only that they say, “Bring [back] our forefathers, if you should be truthful.” Say, “God causes you to live, then causes you to die; then He will assemble you for the Day of Resurrection, about which there is no doubt,” but most of the people do not know. (Quran,45:24-26)
Everything In Between 